When I was in the shower this morning I thought about my day. It’s a big day for us, it’s our 20 week ultrasound. I knew so early that I was pregnant that the half way mark seemed soooo far away, and now it’s here just a few hours away. So, I’m a planner – I want to know what this baby is. I know a handful of my friends who decided not to know and it was a magical experience for them, but it’s just me – I want to know and so does Eric. But he’s so awesome about it, just like when we were here a couple of years ago Eric told me he wanted what I wanted. He’s so great, I’m so lucky to have him.
So we go in today to the ultrasound at 10:45. It’s a room that carries so much weight. All we really ask for is a healthy baby, it’s what the ultrasound is actually for, but that’s a given. I flash back to hearing the news of our best couple friend, who received heartbreaking news about their first baby in a room similar to one we’ll be in today. Or the book, I Will Carry You by Angie Smith where they were in a room similar and were given devastating news about their little girl too. I think about the season finale of Private Practice, I can’t remember crying so hard at a TV show. I actually have goosebumps as I type this, thinking about that episode. These thoughts enter my head, but don’t consume like I thought they would. I think I wouldn’t be normal if they didn’t cross my mind. My God is with us, I feel him all around me today.
The baby is squirming around right now jabbing the right side of my belly, and I smile thinking about getting to meet our little boy or girl on the screen today. I’ve been asked quite a few times about what we want…I first answer the obvious answers – a healthy human baby…insert chuckle…and then I tell them if I could choose I’d want another boy. Most people are surprised by my answer, they assume that I would want a girl to finish off the idea of a perfect American Family. I love having a boy and the kids will be 21 months apart and there is something to be said about bunkbeds and best friend brothers, I want that. I have 2 princess nieces a football field away from our house who I LOVE spoiling with girly girl things.
I feel like it’s another boy. This pregnancy is so much like when I was pregnant with Tucker. But we will see in a few hours. I’ll be back with an update and some kind of fun revealing picture. Have a good Friday morning!!